Sunday, August 11, 2013

PAST LIFE THERAPIST IN WORLD....

Hi Everyone!

I am back again, 6 regressions and 8 lives.......... It was not even 1 week after my 5th regression when i started to feel that i wanted to know more................I wanted to know the cause of my most difficult relation and why did it go wrong and why was i being so hated for tolerating 3.5 years of house arrest, humiliation, insult and a life that very few could even imagine.

I had done 6 regressions and i had cleared a lot of my doubts, had reached planning stage that very few would actually reach, the master soul had blessed me in each session but why did i have to choose a person who would plan my death as my life partner ......................what did i do wrong ? Too eager to know i called up Dr.Vandana and fix my appointment for my next session, it was 3 ways away and i just could not wait. While i was continuing to find possible answers i received a text message from Dr.Vandana asking me to contact her.
When i spoke to Dr.Vandana , she asked me to recite a sentence that would help me during my regression and also she asked me to meditate, now this was indicating something different from the rest of my sessions, i realized it is going to be a difficult session perhaps.
On day of my appointment i reached the clinic at 1 pm , my usual timing and we started to discuss my state of mind and why i wanted to undergo the session and then i was asked to meditate .....It was there that Dr.Vandana told me that i was asked to meditate and recite those wording as there was so much eagerness, anxiety in my voice during the telephonic conversation that she had felt i needed to do a little homework in order to be able to regress easily.
The best thing i have experienced with Dr.Vandana is that she reads your mind and she exactly knows where you need to go and what you need to know.
While meditating i was taken to a state of trans and hence the regression started ,where i was in a garden and was supposed to meet someone, it was my present partner , he came and he was holding my hand so tight that i started to feel the pain , he was to go away and he wanted me to wait, he did not want to let go at this point Dr.Vandana started a healing work and with help of divine light she healed the session and freed my hand from him and asked me to move on .............I reached a tunnel of white light and before Dr.Vandana could asked me to enter the tunnel i had reached the end of it so She asked me to start looking around and regressing to where i would get my answers for this session.................. I was a man about 38years of age  , very well dressed who smoked ......Very clearly knew that I was in London , i kept on looking at my pocket watch as i had an appointment at 2 pm with someone .............A very important appointment....the guy did not turn up which was making me very nervous & helpless, i started to feel a pain in my left arm and heart area to which i knew that i was having heart problem.... at this point Dr.Vandana asked me to go to the next event and i saw that i was home , a domestic help served me with a cup of tea in an English style ....I was waiting and i knew the person i was waiting for was my wife, the waiting was keeping me upset and grieving.
The next scene was at supper, where my wife and my 8 years old daughter were at the table, my wife was saying supper prayers and my daughter and I were playing a little game, winking at each other and being just playful............. It took me a while to move from this scene and next scene was something i resisted to reach at , i was hugging my wife but i knew she did not love me, at this point i started crying and i said i love her so much and she does not love me and then i saw who she loved , my present life partner who was watching us and enjoying my misery and helplessness........The worst was he did not even love my wife but she knew nothing about it, she did not know that he was just using her.
At this time Dr.Vandana asked me to find out why did he want to hurt me and when i regressed to earlier time in my life i saw that we were all playing soccer , i was very good at games, sports , studies and was the most favourite of all teachers, neighbourhood and he was a neglected child from a broken family who was not even good looking and had inferiority complex ....He hated me as i was too popular, next scene was that i had graduated from College and i was getting engaged to the most amazing girl in my community and we loved each other immensely .............Dr.Vandana asked me if this person was attending my wedding, i saw that he was not invited and was not in church however he was watching from outside. We were a happy couple and we were soon blessed with a baby girl.
Next i saw was that i was to leave for an assignment which prolonged to about a year , at this time Dr.Vandana asked me to see how my wife met the guy..........It was during a neighbourhood get together or some kind of festival where they met and next they met for an evening tea at my place and at this moment i started crying again as he was holding my wife’s hand.............I cried a lot and then Dr.Vandana asked me to move to the next important event, which was the night i came back from work and i saw my wife and the guy in my bedroom.............I started sobbing, left the house, walking aimlessly on roads, felt broken , cheated and shattered............after 2-3 days i came back home. At this point Dr.Vandana asked me what that appointment all about was. The first scene when my regression started.
That meeting was about hiring someone to kill both my wife and her lover and when the guy did not turn up i felt that all my plans would fail ..............Dr.Vandana asked me what happened next, you went home and were having dinner to which i answered that i never had dinner that night, i was just sitting at the table. She asked me what happened after that and i was refusing to answer , it took me a long time to talk and when i talked i revealed that i had killed my wife, with a knife, i slit her throat. She asked me did you run away after that i said no, i hid somewhere to see what happens next and as anticipated the lover had come, he was sitting by her side and shocked............and i kept on saying he is not having any feeling, he is not upset, he is not sad, he is just shocked, he never loved my wife. Next was that the domestic saw him with my wife’s dead body and eventually he was taken to a place which looked like prison and later i read from newspaper that he was charged guilty which gave me immense satisfaction and happiness....It felt like a bonus as i had not planned it but then he was punished. At this time Dr.Vandana asked me if i was feeling guilty and i said no, i had given her enough chances.............
Dr.Vandana asked me to see how he was feeling so i saw him in jail, where he was sitting with his lifeless eyes, the same calculative mind, with absolutely no emotions or feelings however i knew he wanted revenge and he was just waiting for the right time..................I saw the same person for the second time in my regressions and each time he had the same eyes, emotionless....lifeless!!! Complex and EVIL.
What  happened next was that my daughter grew up and i fell more sick as time went by , she had become a nurse ..............I died in d hospital from illness related to heart and lungs A doctor, 2 nurses and my daughter were present.
I was asked by doctor to see what happened to my body and i was very upset to know that my daughter had donated my body for research to a hospital , i died in 1940 and my daughter who was a nurse in India had donated my body to a medical school and i was buried after 1-2 months ..........I was very upset that without my consent my body was donated .............I was buried like an unknown person with no stone in some unknown place within the hospital...................then i stated that since in India they don’t burry the body, they did not know how to do it.
After my death Dr.Vandana asked me to go and seek forgiveness from the guy , I went to him in jail and met him, forgave him and also explained him that i was hurt and it was him who started to hurt me etc., it took me a lot of time and eventually we hugged and forgave each other , for the first time whether in regression or in real life i saw life in his eyes and we smiled and parted ways then i left to join the divine light, i saw my soul mates and also the master soul, this time i was a greyish light not too bright so Dr.Vandana healed me with divine light and then the master soul blessed me too and i asked him about my soul mate again and he reassured me that i would be with my soul mate in present life. I did not ask anything this time from my soul mate as i knew he was busy finishing an un finished work so that we could be together.
I rested in white light and received blessings ....................Dr.Vandana asked me to forgive my wife and my partner “s friend from real life who had helped my partner to plan my death but i was too tired and i told her that it was not required as that is what the master soul had indicated.
It is so strange how we keep carrying impressions and how we plan to pay for our deeds ....I feel blessed to have been able to experience 8 lives...........Maybe this is one of the reasons i kept coming back to India despite all that i went through here.

Thank you Dr.Vandana









Wednesday, August 7, 2013

PAST LIFE REGRESSION THERAPIST IN WORLD....



The last session i underwent with Dr.Vandana was about 3 months ago , last 15 days i started to feel that i needed another session to be able to seek forgiveness and also forgive the souls that i had encountered.
I met Dr.Vandana with a blank state of mind, detached and told here even if i can recognize true love i am either in denial of the feeling or it just does not matter .......anyways after a lengthy consultation session i took an appointment and just before the session , about 2 days before if i am precise i started to feel that i was coming close to know the biggest secret of my life and i wld be able to clear the path to my current life’s purpose.
When i met Dr.Vandana for my session i told her my state of mind and she made me meditate and did the cleansing After in a semi hypnotized state i reached the bed where i was taken to a deep trans ...

It was a beautiful garden and i was a female soul, waiting in a beautiful garden in my red jacket waiting for someone..........day passed and by evening and before dark i realized that he would never turn up so i went home, a wooden home with yellow light in a forest with no neighbourhood in sight.........i knew i had to have my food alone as my family was upset with me.
Dr.Vandana asked my to see around and see how many people are there in my family, i could see mom who happens to be my mother in current life, my father and a brother who was 10 years younger. Dr asked me to move forward in time and try and see what happens next , what i saw was i ate alone at supper and went to bed, i had a modest but very warm family, dad was alot elder to mom, 20 years elder.
When Dr asked me to move ahead in time i realized that everyone in my family had duties to complete during the day so we never had lunch together, at this point Dr. Vanadana asked me who i was waiting for in teh garden , , he was my love and was supposed to purpose me that day, a young tall man who was in his mid thirties, very well dressed with brown hair..........He was different from us , a person of status and had too many conditions for marriage , he was proud with a tall ego and that had stopped him that day from purposing me.
The next i saw myself was that i was travelling , i boarded a big ship and was waving goodbye at my family, i left Canada for good and i knew i wld never come back. I reached a place much more crowded than my native place , it was a European country but i could not recognize the place, i stayed in a very small and dirty place where mostly single women stayed, i was cleaning all the time and i suppose that was my mode of income and suddenly i felt heavy , i was pregnant and had a bump. I gave birth to a son in my room with the help of some women in the building and i loved my son...............i was very contented and continued working. Dr.Vandana asked if ever my family visited me and my reply was no , i mentioned a few times that i was very contented and i was in fact very surprised that i never missed home. Dr.Vandana asked me if there was any communication with family and i mentioned that i used to write to them initially but later i stopped. My son was growing and i was very happy. Dr asked me if i ever married and i said no and when she asked me how i looked i answered i was tall , very fair and pretty but tried to stay indoors and lower my looks so that i do not get noticed by men......... i wanted to avoid them.
Next event was that the father of my son and me were sitting across the table, he had found me , he had come to take me back but i refused to go with him, i did not tell him about his son and this was his punishment and my revenge. I did not forgive him.
The next was when my son was getting married to this woman i did not find very pretty and did not like who happens to be my younger sister in law in my current life , now i had my own little place to stay which was clean and i no more cleaned houses. My son was blessed with a baby boy and i realized my daughter in law was keeping my son happy and was a good mother so i started to like her. Every Sunday they would come to visit me. It was one of those Sundays while waiting for my son and his family i died on the chair .............after 15 minutes they arrived and i could see my son restless running up and down , upset and daughter in law holding my hand and crying and my grand child just observing.
At this point Dr.Vandana asked me to see what happened to that man and i told her that he had written me a letter and seeked forgiveness but i threw the letter in the bin and never replied so she asked me to go to him before his death and forgive him , i reached that moment , he was parallized and lying on death bed, i forgave him and told him that he shld have not put his pride above love and i also seeked forgiveness for not telling him about his son............once i felt the process was complete then Dr. Vnadana asked me to disconnect the cord which appeared a bright white cord connecting our head but when i tried to disconnect it became a grey cloud. DR healed the grey cloud with the help of divine light (her technique) and then i disconnected however the soul still wanted to finish another un finished task..........i went home , explained my mother why i never wrote back and asked for forgiveness, then met my brother and apologized that i cld not be a good sister and be with him when he needed me the most and once i was done i moved easily up , at a very high speed.
When i was forgiving my lover i realized he was my dad in current life.............
After i reached the white light i knew i am to rest there for 10 years , Dr asked if i cld see any soulmate and there they were again , all of them , reading writing and lost in their scholar word again......i saw the same soul mate again , who was younger and had conveyed to me that no matter where i go i wld be re united with him again, with Dr vandana’s guidance i asked him a question that what are you writing and he showed me his book , it was written “ u wld be mine”, then he hel my hand and tried to push me towards himself so that i could join him, DR told me to ask how wld i know him and he replied he would push me on his own and it felt as if the time to meet him was very close now.
At this point Dr asked me if i could see the master and yes he was there right behind me , waiting lovingly for my conversation to finish and i turned around and asked him that i know i am here for a purpose and i know i am very close to that purpose , when is it ? when is the time and he gave me a very clear date .............
After that he surrounded me and gave me blessings, initially we both were of same colour and material silverfish but after the master soul embraced me and patted me on forehead with his blessings we both became translucent , so pure i was , crystal clear and i stayed in that state of abundance blessing to my full.... contented, blessed and light...........IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL FEELING !
I had recognized my soul mate but i was in denial ............he was my best friend............OH!! by the way my grave read Rose-1857 and i died in Italy.
“ The lesson i learnt was that one needs to be responsible for his own actions and be contented “

After this moment i told Dr.vandana that i was ready to come back…and wanted to know why my father always left me…..she use a different technique and guided me to the past life which has its root cause … and suddenly…..i reached to my anpther past life… i was in Greece , a desserted village, everyone had died , i had come back to check for something............Dr .Vandana asked me to go to an important event and i saw that i was 14/15 years old , eldest son and had 2 brothers( Both my brothers in current life), it was in 1600 yrs..........we were extremely poor. I saw my brothers eating and when Dr.asked why aren’t you eating i said i was elder and had to wait for them to finish as there was never enough food, mother was like a shadow , she really did not existed it seemed, father was always unstable and drunk , he was addicted to alcohol  and he was always lying around with a bottle in his hand.............
When i saw myself first in this life i had come back looking for something , plague had killed everyone but my father had died of hunger , at this moment i started hauling and was continuously crying ............i said i left my father to die...in hunger.......I had taken my brothers away, as i could only either feed them or buy alcohol  for my father so as a kid i had taken my bothers away and now that i could afford my father i had come back for him but i knew that he died long before plague hit the village and of hunger and my soul was so guilty............my father happened to be my father from the current life again , the next significant event in this life was my death, i was a respected man , kept in coffin which my younger brothers carried to grave yard............many people were around, i had never married in this life either.............i died a beautiful respectful death and my brothers were doing well ..............so here once again Dr.Vandana asked me to seek my father’s forgiveness which i did however i wanted to make him aware that he needs to be a responsible soul, he cant carry on leaving his children life after life so i spoke to him, made him understand and then forgave him and also asked for his forgiveness and it is only after i finished this responsibility i could go to rest .............this time after i rested Dr.Vandana helped me progress to future and i saw a beautiful even however wld not be able to share the same on this platform.............
I had a beautiful experience and the lesson i learnt was “ sometimes the best decisions are not necessarily the right ones and while taking a decision one should always involve both heart and mind and not always practical decisions are the best ones for our soul journey.

Thank you Dr.Vandana for such an amazing experience..........

Thanks once again .................Your therapy and patience during the consultations has always made me so welcomed and comfortable ...........Alot has changed in my life and you have helped me live better.









Tuesday, August 6, 2013

PAST LIFE THERAPY HELPS IN VERY SENSITIVE ISSUES IN PERSONS LIFE....CONFUSION ABOUT OWN SEXUAL BEHAVIOUR....READ THIS SESSION CASE STORY...TO UNDERSTAND HOW PLRT CAN HELP......Pas life therapist in World

Past Life Regression helped her to understand her SEXUAL  identity :

Case.
...a girl, age...28, unmarried/o disharmony  and fights  in parents life, dominating mother, no role of parents in brought up, mother brought her up as a boy, dressed like boy, people used to think they are two brothers in family, send hostel in class 6th. Medical record...treatment for. hypothyroidism, increase uric acid, osteoarthritis, insomnia, goiter, direction of road loss , mainly in night, do not like sequences, shock absorber for strong events’, gets irritated in small things, frequent dream. Going somewhere, but something left behind, confused about her sexual identity, but not experienced any relation or sex in anyway. Actually not interested in it. When parents say to get married, feels it is imp. For her to know her sexual identity.

Regression life one... year 1817,
 I am a man, we live in some forest, i have a wife and two kids. I am head. We are sitting for meeting under tree. Food is not much in this area, we have to move.  We are moving, we lost the track, and it is desert. Aandhi chal rahi hai. All around is sand. I am inside sand, I am dying, I am dead.
Lesson learned.........I am at peace, but i am not happy, I am leader, direction must be taken care of.
Regression life two.....year...1817
, i am a girl, meera, in hamipur. My parents are thinking of my marriage. I am married, have one son. I and my husbands are like friends, not like husband, now he is dead. Live is moving. I do not talk to any one. i am now dead. i do not have any worry.
Lesson learned...algaav (detachment)
Regression life three...
.i am 3 yrs old girl. My parents are old. They found me near river. this village in Raipur panchayat. i am daughter of king , was born in a palace. My mother with her own wish left me in liver, old man found me. He is too sick. He is dead. I am 19 yrs. old lady do a lot of chik...Chik. i go to small land, do all farming, hal jotna, i wear kurta pajama only, because they gave this dress only. Old lady is dead......
a girl is jumping in river, i saved her., bought her home, time is moving. She takes care of home, i do farming. She is behaving like my wife. We now sleep in one bed, but there is no sex. I think i protection is main issue. She is now not happy. She is married, i am surprised, and she is asking me some tofha. She is gone. i am upset, she should have told me. Time is moving. i am not much well now. She is back. , fighting me why i not stopped her. She fights a lot. i am not well, it is morning, i am on cot outside hut. She is shouting, telling she is going to jump in well. She is going towards well. i cannot stop her. My legs are too weak now; she jumped in well in front of my eyes. I am getting weak day by day, i am dying, i am dead.
Lesson learned...algaav (detachment)
Regression life  four.....year 1959
, i am a boy ,age  22 year, with father and grand mother. My marriage with a moti (fat) girl is what i am seeing. Now our home lost all the peace, my wife is very "ladaka", and of angry nature. She is after my dadi. i have a son now, dadi is dead. My wife sleeps in kitchen, and fight whole day. My cousin and business partner tells me to kill her. We bought poison; he mixed it in water and gave her to drink. She in falling on the floor. She is dead. No one knows it. We are safe, but i am feeling too weak. This is guilt. Yeh mera sanskar nahi tha...i am getting weaker, no medicine work for me, and I am on bed. i am no more my father is crying.
lesson....i am  feeling  too much  guilt
AFTER REGRESSION RE-ORIENTATION....
                                 she said...in  early  twenties, i was clear that i am more towards spirituality, i never gets attached to any thing, any one, i learned yoga, but when pressure for my marriage from my mother comes , this thought of my sexual identity came in my mind.
Cause of Multiple Health problems understood by her.
Loss of directions. Also re-experienced, will be removed in future. 
CONTACTED ..After one and half years...she did not have any confusion left for her sexual identity, she know she is a women and very happy about it.
                                                 Dr. Vandana Singh Raghuvanshi, Chandigarh...09872880634



Sunday, August 4, 2013

RELATIONSHIP BITTERNESS AND TURMOILS ..LIKED WITH PAST LIFE EVENTS. READ THIS PAST LIFE SESSION STORY......Past life therapist in World ...dr.vandana raghuvanshi

He regressed three pastlives in a single past life regression session..
..After session
 he said- It was amazing.....
*A 32 yrs ,man,working in MNC, from Delhi.....
1st life..
rned lession..Have courage,stay to your point, do what you really love to do.
.Mimi (~1900), a women,? Aregntina (south America),bought up her daughter alone, as her loving husband died ,when daughter was only three.She gave whole life to daughter and not utilized another chance came in life .Lession learned....Courage is must, for the things for which you feel strongly.If you have courage you donot miss another chance.
.Borris (~1893 Russia) lived a good life, was sportman, married young, understand soon that they were very differnt, took dicision, seperated with each other with harmony, travelled, wrote, when felt lonely felt like adopting child, adopted child, lived happily with son till end. Lession learned....Satisfactory life. decide in time.listen to heart.And people who love you donot leave them.
.Borris life wisdom and lession was needed to be reminded, as mimi,s life and prakash,s life ..forget that he already learned this lession..
.It was an amazing session.

PAST LIFE REGRESSION CASE STORY FOR BLOOD PHOBIAS ...By dr.vandana raghuvanshi , past life therapist in Delhi, India...contact her...09872880634

Phobias/ Fears bring darkness in life.I f it is removed, light comes in life.Past life regression helps to remove phobias
.A case of Blood Phobia is releases fully after three months....
A 14, yrs,class 9th, girl with intense blood phobia.Cann't see tv,sight of blood even on tv,she use to feel-headach, palpitation,sweating.h/o negative dreams &not comfertable with relations....
* Regressed in past life.....
 in Turky, a 15 yrs old boy, got crushed below lorry, both legs chopped.Then left by own parents and adopted by other couple...,discribed whole life , till death in old age.
After regression..
.Oh!!! I saw too much blood flowing from my legs. 
The regreesion was in nov2011. She came to meet in april 2012..
she said..
.I can see tv and go to movies now.
I am not having recurrent headachs.
I feels very carefree at home now.
I feels better with family 

Friday, August 2, 2013

YOU CAN UNDERSTAND THE CAUSE OF YOUR RELATIONSHIP STRESS IN YOUR PAST LIFE.....PAST LIFE REGRESSION THERAPIST IN LUDHIANA.....09872880634

He regressed three pastlives in a single past life regression session...
.After session he said- It was amazing.....
*A 32 yrs ,man,working in MNC, from Delhi.....
1st life..
.Prakash (~1960) an army man , only son of small state, in Raj. learned lession..Have courage,stay to your point, do what you really love to do.
**2nd life-..
.Mimi (~1900), a women,? Aregntina (south America),bought up her daughter alone, as her loving husband died ,when daughter was only three.She gave whole life to daughter and not utilized another chance came in life .Lession learned....Courage is must, for the things for which you feel strongly.If you have courage you donot miss another chance.
***3rd life...
.Borris (~1893 Russia) lived a good life, was sportman, married young, understand soon that they were very differnt, took dicision, seperated with each other with harmony, travelled, wrote, when felt lonely felt like adopting child, adopted child, lived happily with son till end. Lession learned....Satisfactory life. decide in time.listen to heart.And people who love you donot leave them.
In present life..
.Borris life wisdom and lession was needed to be reminded, as mimi,s life and prakash,s life ..forget that he already learned this lession..
.It was an amazing session.

A SESSION ON SKYPE....Past life regression story....therapist...dr.vandana raghuvanshi

  Hi Everyone !

 Past life therapy has changed my life and made me a different person , it has been an amazing journey and I feel so much more calmer and at peace today , It is not that all problems in life get resolved at a click but I as a person have changed and become more compassionate , less judgemental , I no more play the victim , I don’t hold others responsible for my issues instead I look for solutions and answers within me .
I connected myself with dr.vandana raghuvanshi on skype and my session starts....
I saw myself in a white dress, a woman in her thirties, dressed in a white pleated skirt which was part of a dress with a golden colour thin belt and same colour shoes, I knew I was a woman of status , I knew I was single but I knew I was not wealthy or rich if I use the right word, it felt I had nothing despite having everything.
Next I saw that I was with a man , a tall man in a very expensive 3 piece grey suit, he was smoking a pipe, we were sitting on a bench , he was sitting and I was lying down with my head in his lap looking at him and listening to him hoping what I was being promised was true whereas deep inside I knew this too was shallow and empty.
The next scene I saw was I was performing on the stage , I was rehearsing a song and later the same evening that hall was full of people and I was performing a musical dance where I was both singing and dancing and there were other girls who were dancing with me.
I saw that same man again at the back stage. Nothing special and relevant happened. Next scene was when I was performing a scene and I got hurt and got injured , at this time I could feel the physical pain in my body, I had fractured a body part and Dr.Vanadana had to heal the physical pain in order to help me progress further. The next scene was that I saw myself drinking and smoking excessively , I was lonely and sad , I was angry too ...after my injury they had cancelled my contract a new girl had taken my place and when I returned to work after my treatment they refused me the work. I was furious and angry , I was sad too as it meant my short term fame would soon come to an end.  Next scene I saw was I was meeting the other performer who had replaced me , I was bad with her , I was hurt and were holding her responsible for my misery . I remember giving her a drink which had a substance which made her very sick.

Suddenly I was seeing life from above , I had died , I was asked to look from above and go to my time of death , I had died of excess alcohol and smoking ...At the time of death they were two domestic helps who discovered my body , they were not shocked , they were expecting this to happen , maybe even they felt relieved as I was always drunk and was not very nice to them either. I was asked to see if I ever married or had any man in life , I did not quite say it but I knew I had many short term relationships. But never expected anything out of those relationships as I knew that they were too shallow, it was a co existence .
In one scene I saw myself reaching an event , I was again wearing a long white gown and was carrying a fur coat with a lot of expensive jewellery . There was press and I could see camera flashes, I was very comfortable with attention.
I was asked to see my childhood and my home , it was very strange I could not relate to my childhood and the answer I gave was I did not have a childhood or a home but I knew I was not raised in an orphanage either. It felt as if I was never treated like a  child.
I saw that there were just 2-3 people at my funeral and I had died a very lonely death and a very sad one. I moved above , it was not easy for me to move up this time , I had a heavy baggage and I was tired , as soon as I reached the white light I said I have to rest for 15 years.
I saw my soul mate , the senior from my soul mate group and he told me that I need to concentrate on myself , I asked him what did that mean and he said follow your passion , I got an impression he wanted me to concentrate on the creative me . I saw my soul mate too and before I would ask a question about him the senior counsellor told me  don’t worry he would be there to support you , you just concentrate on yourself.
I could sense the presence of the master soul and I went to him , I got his blessings for a very very long time , to my full satisfaction and I looked above , he understood my question , I wanted to ask him why did I again had to die such a sad and lonely death , but he already knew my question , at this point I could not stop crying , it took me a lot of time to release the sadness I was carrying from that life. He blessed me and lovingly wanted me to be patient . I went back to the white light to rest.
When I looked at my life from above I feel it was a life wasted , I was very famous and had lots of money but I was not happy ...I was still lonely !
If I run my current life parallel to that life there is a lot of things I can now understand where it comes from ... I was a model for many years , I would do very selective assignment , I would participate in small pageants and have always won the crown but never got excited with too much attention and never wanted to be in the lime light , I don’t remember ever taking anyone’s compliment seriously ,people have told me I resemble many different personalities from Indian cinema and Hollywood , even princess Diana ...But all these never made me happy , attention never brought ego in me neither I really cared , I also inherit a sense of style and have a uniqueness about how I would like to appear and have been complimented for that , I can be a heart of a gathering or feel extremely aloof even amongst most close ones. I turned down movie offers, I would get selected after auditions and I would start praying God please do something that I can get out of these, almost every person I have met has told me I should take modelling and acting seriously and the immediate thought that would cross my mind used to be “ They can’t even imagine what a sad and lonely life that would be “ and after seeing this life I understand where did that statement come from.

Since the actress I saw myself as is one of the biggest Hollywood actresses I am not mentioning the name but I went back on Google and searched her , she did have a left body part injury , her claim of fame was huge but very short lived, cause of her death was never known but it was in her apartment and one of the reasons was said to be overdose of drug and alcohol , more is to come , I have been born exactly 15 years after her death ...I also saw 2 pictures of hers in exact same dresses and attire including detail of jewellery I saw myself wearing in regression , another strange point is I have never watched a single movie of her . When I would hear her name I would think and wonder why there is so much hype about her. When I asked how the childhood I answered there was was no childhood and no home and when I checked on Google till the age of 14 she had changed 15-16 places and was staying with different relatives or in a foster home but never in an orphanage.
This seems to be my most recent life and has left me with a strange feeling , I feel this would be a regression which would keep unfolding new meanings for me every time I would read my experience. In that life I was unhappy because I was looking for my happiness in people’s recognition , I never bothered to sit back and think how I did for myself , I was a performer and it was other’s applause that would measure my success , my satisfaction and my achievements , I never bothered to sit back and see what did my lonely heart want , I only wanted to remain on top and anything less than that resulted in myself abuse. I believe I have carried that with me , even in this life till a while ago I would only measure my success by watching myself please others, even if I had to act I would do it to make sure everyone is happy and satisfied , I have been an actor so that I keep everyone pleased and happy and never bothered about what I wanted . My lesson from this life is “ Happiness comes from within , if you search happiness in your surroundings you end up being alone and wasted.”